Hey everyone – wanted to bring you in the loop regarding a change for me as it relates to the worship team.
Just to be clear and up-front, I am NOT going anywhere Shay and I love this church, love the people, and feel called to worship and serve here. Just need to make some adjustments.
Since I took back over worship leading duties for Cameron two and a half years ago, I’ve been in a constant state of prayer and seeking the Lord for His will as it relates to the role. I viewed it initially as a temporary role, trusting that God would tell me how long that role would last.
Sometimes I’ve pushed that notion aside and asked God whether it actually isn’t a temporary role but rather God’s long-term plan for the music ministry here.
But through much prayer, fasting, serving, waiting, and talking with Shay I’m coming to the conclusion that I’m not meant to be “the guy” long term.
And there are a few simple reasons:
1. I don’t have the mental space to serve well in this role.
The mental demands of running a business (as well as starting a new one in January) paired with being a husband and father who is present enough to love and serve my family well is taxing. Adding the responsibility, tasks, and mental energy of worship leading into the mix is just too much.
Worship leading gets the absolute last ounce of energy I have and as such I’m not really able to give it the attention, focus, prayer, and creativity it needs – that our PEOPLE need.
2. I never get to go to church with my family.
This is one of the hardest elements of doing what I do. I rarely if ever get to see my family on Sunday mornings, ride to church with them in the same car, or worship with Shay (and sometimes the girls) during the service.
I don’t mind waking up early and making it happen. I just don’t get to experience church with my family. And it’s pretty much been like that for the past 8 years. Even for the two years that Cam was leading, I was one of the only sound guys so I had to come early as well.
3. I don’t feel a strong calling to serve as the worship leader.
This is a big one. While I feel that I am gifted and able enough to be the worship leader, I don’t have any sense of God calling me to be the worship leader. I don’t have a strong desire to do it. I don’t have any vision for it. I don’t have a sense of excitement or passion towards it.
I do believe that God called me back into it just before Cameron left. No doubt. And I do believe that the Spirit gave me the new songs to write this past year and gave me the energy and vision to record and produce the new EP along with the new website. And I do enjoy the act of leading and singing with you all on Sundays.
But that’s about it. Right now I feel much more of a call to create a new business and serve God in that capacity than I do in the realm of worship leading.
4. Finally, I think a full-time worship pastor would be the best thing for our church.
Plain and simple, I believe that there is someone out there who is more gifted, more capable, more passionate, and more available than me to serve in this role to its fullest. A full time worship pastor could bear much more fruit for our people than me.
Music at Aletheia happens right now because I just make it happen every week by God’s grace. And my worship team is a huge reason for they I am able to pull this off!
Plus I have tried not to travel as much as I used to so I can lead every Sunday. It’s worked, but it’s not healthy, wise, or a long term solution.
By bringing someone on full-time the ministry could grow and flourish, and then I could become a potential backup should the new guy need a break. Or I could serve in a rotation. Whatever would be best for everyone.
All the while, the new guy could audition new musicians, develop the team, write new songs, learn new songs, think through different service elements, etc. These are things I realistically can’t do and don’t do well.
Please don’t take this as sudden or out of the blue.
It’s been a two year process of seeking the Lord and I keep coming back to this decision – I’ve just tried to ignore it and just keep “pressing on” week after week. But I’m seeing now, that I’m only delaying the inevitable and delaying what God wants to do.
If you have ANY questions relating to this just ask!
In the meantime nothing is changing, and I’m here ready to serve for as long as God wants me to.
Love you all and trust what Jesus is doing.
**** From the Aletheia Elders ****
We are beyond thankful for all that Graham has done in leading Aletheia in worship over the years. He has been a huge grace to us and an elder team and to the church as a whole. In addition we want to thank all of the volunteers for all of the time and talents they have put into leading as well.
In light of Graham transitioning out of the worship leader role the elders have decided to pursue a full-time worship pastor. We have sent the position description to a few church networks and churches we have relationships with.
Additionally, we welcome any experienced worship pastors you may know who might be willing to apply for this position. Feel free to send this position description to them. The deadline to apply is by 5:00 p.m. (EST), Friday, March 16, 2018.